Dear Himitsu:

Well, Himitsu, the last two days were just like I told you it would be at school. Except I usually always have a hope that someone will see me and be my friend, give me a chance, and be a great companion. That would be so wonderful. Though, I doubt if these silly day dreams will ever come true.

Every day seems to get duller and duller every day without someone to share with. I get up every morning, go to school, come home, do my homework, maybe read, or a little doodling, or watch a little tv after a few chores, and go back to bed. I'm almost in zombie mode alot through these days... not realizing I've been completely apathetic the entire month until recently. As if I'm some kind of robot without emotion, going through chores day after day. It's really getting dull. I wish so much for something to happen... maybe papa will move and I can get a fresh start at a new school; maybe the people at that future school will give me a chance and like me. Of course, every friend I've ever had, I've hurt. These dumb 'fits' always injure someone... I guess it is better for me to be alone, then I won't hurt anyone else.

I feel so depressed again... maybe I'll go to the park today. That usually always cheers me up.

~Hotaru-chan